beabs!

2007-12-04T10:18:00.000+08:00

exams are long over

prom is over

speech night is over

and now all that fills my life is dance.

but that's going to be over soon too

then i will have my holidays (:

and then christmas will come!

2007-10-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

thank you all who wished me! (:
and for the overseas phonecalls as well! haha i feel so loved!

well thats as far as the happiness goes,
exams start in two days.

2007-10-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

OMG
i just dropped my pretty pretty phone that i love so so so much.
and then the screen cracked ):

damn it.
i wanna cry.
it looks so ugly now ):

and all my mum said was "see God's telling you that perfection isnt everything"
damn it
i'm so irritated with myself

2007-09-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

igcse starts in about a week plus, all because of stupid art. and it even has to eat into our study leave which is seriously stupid. then exams drag all the way till the 15 of nov then i'll be free!
haha i cant wait (:

2007-09-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

i got bored

so i made dessert

i made way too much

and i dont think its that good

i think its too un-sweet for many, but then again its supposed to be with condense milk which is the sweetest thing ever

well i guess its not bad since i havent made it in about a year or so

i wanted to bake cookies,

but i got lazy

2007-09-21T22:24:00.001+08:00

its over! (:

new places, new things, new book, good food, and a ton of laughter - made my today.

and sorry shinny and sulin are like a bit blocked but that was the only photo with all of us that didnt have somemore moving or cut out.

2007-09-20T11:45:00.001+08:00

damn chemistry
why cant i be a science person,
at least be able to do one science?

well amaths paper1 wasnt bad
2 more papers left,
1 more day

2007-09-18T18:06:00.000+08:00

"Mercy"
Jodi Picoult

its seriously a good book
on love and decisions
its a little depressing

but its still amazing
its almost like a fairytale
somehow with the real world and real hurt put into it

2007-09-18T07:15:00.000+08:00

you know what to hell with the whole thing. what makes you even think that was to you? but since you did fine then i'm just gonna say this and that'll be the end of it because this is just gonna go back and forth and never end. if only you stopped and thought about everything you'd realise why would i have any reason to believe that you cared? but obviously you think you're right like you always do. i'm not gonna give a damn anymore. its a waste of my time and my emotions. you dont even know whats happening in my life and you think that the this whole thing is the most important thing i have to think about. well you're wrong. life's a bitch there's far more to it than about this kinda shit. not eveyone has to create their own problems and make other people miserable in the process. if you're gonna say its my fault then fine whatever you want. i really dont care. go waste your life away and break somemore people's hearts then. since it seems to be what you're best at. and you'll do perfect in this eh since you say lying is the currency of this world.

whatever. have a nice life.
i really dont need this right now. like you said at least i have my friends to count on.

2007-09-17T19:08:00.001+08:00

so today i spent the morning and bits of the afternoon studying. sad way to spend a day off from school and it really doesnt feel like i'm in the middle of exams

econs sucks. there's just too much to memorise and i cant remember anything. my brain was half dead just now. like shinny was asking me questions and then i couldnt remember anything haha like she'll ask me about smth and i go "okay" thinking she was telling me a point haha it was kinda funny. and its so nice to see so many cute ang moh babies. they're so adorable esp when they arent noisy (:

well i have about half a book of econs left to study so i might as well die tmr.
then there's amaths which i'll probably die doing too ):

you don't realise what you're doing
do you

2007-09-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

i studied today.
but i dont think i remember much of it ):

random but why the hell do people make promises if they dont even intend to keep them. thats just cheating people's feeling. how evil of them.
oh well the world's full of liars and cheats who dont care about anyone but themselves. and worst of all they make it such that people who are stupid enough like me will feel like i let them down or it was my fault or whatever. what joy do they get in that, the satisfaction that they can control other people's feelings? sheesh and then people tell you that you shouldnt think that other people will change and you should change and learn to accept them but it really isnt that easy especially if they make you so irritated and annoyed that you just wanna slap them so hard their head falls off. its sad how you need a big big horrible thing to happen to you before you can really change from inside out.

well it was random anyway i think i've been thinking too much the past few days. well i havent done that in a while considering all i've had time to worry about was prelims.

2007-09-14T18:54:00.001+08:00

art exam today was quite horrible. there was hardly enough time to finish the paper and then on top of that i got so bored and tired of painting and looking at the stupid crab and being stuck in the art room for 4 hours. the next art papers gonna be bad too cuz i have even more to do in the same amount of time. i cannot fail my art.

well i have econs and amaths left to study for. li has only art so its like she has one whole week off from school. and shinny only has econs. lucky ducks haha

i regret taking amaths ): its so hard and it confuses me! there are so many damn rules to learn la wah lao. i need more practice books i have no more to do ): eh sulin if you ever go back to that place where you bought the chem book can help me buy the amaths one please and thankyou (: if you happen to go there la k if not its okay!

and for econs i have no more papers to do so that leaves me with NO practice cuz there are no damn econs assesment books available and i even searched online but i couldnt find any for igcse. damn them. i tried to do my brothers old books but then they're all so in depth and hard cuz its for a level. darn i hate memorising.

c' mon one more week and i can relax.
i really really really wanna shop ):
haha i should stop complaining.

2007-09-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

my brother was super nice and got me a present! (:

thankyou!

haha now i'm happy i dont even feel like i'm taking an exam. i dont even know why i'm so happy. i think the studying has got to my head. i'm going crazy. which is actually bad. haha well i'm not prepared for chem or lit but i will read my lit tmr and i'm doing chem questions now so i hope that i will do at least reasonably (: haha if you look i took the photo over my chem book haha! okay okay back to my books!

2007-09-10T19:46:00.001+08:00

its not even funny how easily i get irritated nowadays. not only irritated. even angry or frustrated or even sad. omg i need to get a grip i'm turning into a bitch.

deep breaths deep breaths

i need a break from all this ):
oh God please help me.

2007-09-09T14:33:00.000+08:00

i didnt go to church cuz i woke up with a really bad headache.
my mum thinks its cuz i've been studying too much and not exercising so my immune system is down. well at least the headache's gone. and i'm gonna be trying to study again today. its amazing how yesterday suddenly at night i managed to do so much in such a short time. first time i stayed up just doing chem and i was quite happy haha but i still have alot more to cover. well prelims start tmr. and i've wasted enough time talking to people the whole morning.
so see you world wide web (:

2007-09-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

this is so random but i wanna get a new camera. the one i have now is nice and sharp and i love the clarity and the colours but mabye a variety in photos would be nicer haha

who knows my brother may someday buy a new camera and he can pass me his old one like he did with my present one (: there's no point in me getting one anyway cuz i wouldnt know whats good

2007-09-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

edit! well i realised i put the same photos up twice so i undid that and put the correct ones up!

i like this photo! (:

i only uploaded most of the photos like i promised, i didnt put any embarrassing ones up. or at least what i thought was embarrassing. if any of you want the rest pass me a thumbdrive k i cant be bothered to send one by one. if not wait till exams are over.

so shinny's birthday celebrations today. met in the morning to get her present. spent close to 2 hours before finally getting everything and meeting her. we were almost an hour late heh. then ate, had a wonderful time, walked to wisma to collect her shoes, then to cine, picked up tickets, shopped a bit, watched no reservations which is a wonderfully sweet and nice show but it was chiche then again i like that kinda shows (: then then then uhhhh jen and nikki left. walked to around taka there then shinny left us. met sulin's friend before carrying on and back to far east. wandered around for almost an hour before we left. and it was a bad idea to wear black skinnies to walk around town. it was so super hot ):

i havent studied at all today. and even now i cant concentrate ): well tmr i shall study the whole day. or at least attempt to.

and whats sad is after all that shopping i hardly bought anything! its quite sad really considering the amount of shops we walked into. i think its cuz i think so much more when i buy stuff nowadays which means no more impluse buying ): heh i guess its good then the hole in my pocket isnt so big. but then i came home feeling quite unaccomplished. retail therapy always works wonders. i cant cant cant wait for exams to end! haha then we can finally go crazy shopping (: well i shall study so i wont be too sad after my exams cuz i regretted not studying. haha then i can have the mood to shop! and i'm gonna save up so i can impulse buy (: and and and i cant wait till next year when i go away then i can shop shop shop! heh

anyway shinny i hope you had a wonderful time and read the post before this (:
and thanks for lunch as well!

2007-09-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

SHINNY (:

happy happy sweet sixteen!

its about half an hour more till you turn sixteen and i figured i'd post this now so when you wake up and if you use the internet you can see this (:

the past over year and a half i've known you has truly been a blessing and this friendship is truly a gift from God. all the wonderful times we spent together, just beginning from orientation at the start of last year. the fun we had while we were out, the crazy times we spent together, the numerous shopping trips, the concerts and movies, the dinners, the lunches, and even that one stayover we had, and lastly the best ever england trip (: heh i cant imagine school life without you my dear pig. and i really hope that after next year if for some reason we wont be in the same school anymore we wont drift. and its amazing how you can understand me even before i complete my sentences and how our eyes can carry a conversation, and how you can put up with my never ending complaints (: you're always always there and i know i can depend on you for anything. and you're also the best secret keeper la! and you're also a wonderful person to stay with! considering we didnt get sick of each other or get annoyed of each other throughout england eh haha anyway i hope that tmr you'll have a wonderful time and you'll remember your sweet sixteen forever (:

i love love love you shinny winny <3

and you know all the ffs love you too

we'll always be here

<3

2007-09-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

editedd

today was quite horrible although nothing really happened. it was like a whole load of emotions just took over me. and i guess it was a matter of time before smth like this happened. my eyes are all small and tired now ): so tuition ended up to not be tuition i was just talking to my tutor the whole time and then i didnt go for dance cuz really i dont think i could have handled it. so since my mum and my brothers were out, i decided to walk to tanglin mall to get stuff to bake! heh walked all the way there accompanied by my ipod and then got my stuff, and my caramel frapp! then walked all the way back. i must say it wasnt that bad (: it was actually kinda nice. except i think people were looking at me funny cuz my eyes were werid heh came home and baked brownies (: i dont think they turned out very pretty but they taste really good! super duper chewy. i shall bring some to school on monday! and i think i will bake cookies sometime in the week. i think baking is theraputic. shopping is too of course but i havent had much of that in a while. i feel much better now anyway. and of course after all that praying i think God really managed to lift my spirits (: it feels much better to just trust in Him and believe that He will bring me out of this. i realised i've been trying to take on people's burdens in the hoping that would help and i guess i shouldnt think that i can handle all that. it may look like i can but i guess there's just too much hurt and pain inside me i dont even show it because its almost as though i cant feel it anymore. only when it builds up so much that i'm about to go crazy then it all comes out. this isnt a good way to live. well i shall lift all my problems up to God because i know He will help me through everything (:

edit!
i really wanna watch license to wed although its not out anymore and i wanna watch no reservations! i hope it wont be gone by the time exams are over.

2007-08-31T20:28:00.000+08:00

last day of term! also arts and cultural day and teachers day celebrations!

shinny was mentioning how we probably wouldnt be able to celebrate the same way and this will probably be the last last day of term we had to go out after ): how depressing haha doesnt feel like my secondary school life is coming to an end. anyway fish and co (reminded me of england again haha i love love love time with shinny and li) , hairspray (which was a really really fun movie btw i wanna learn all the dances! they look insanely fun (: i want the dvd! except its cliche but then again i like that) , mr figgles getting wrapped finally so li can stop with her obsession, window shopping, tons of walking, art friend and quality time with them (: and thank you li for staying with me even though i know you wanted to go home <3 i owe you big big haha cant wait for our art marathon then we get to paint our crabs again (: and shinny you can thank your sister for me haha for taking the video and photos! heh and thanks for putting up with my complaints today i know i complained alot to you sorry! i love love you my pig! (:

art exam on monday and tuesday ): i have hardly any prep. i need to do it over the weekend and hopefully i'll have enough time before the exam to finish it up.

oh well goodbye internet (:

2007-08-28T17:10:00.000+08:00

art today! with our crabs (: li-en turned my crab against me just because i didnt name it ): haha well anyway we didnt manage to get a photo with our crabs cuz we were afraid mdm would scream and us. but i did get pretty pictures of them! haha my crab looks prettier than li's! not the painting the real thing (: hahaha okay she's gonna kill me anyway i shall continue painting my crab its actually rather fun haha except it really isnt turning out like the real thing ): oh well

2007-08-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

we painted crabs for art today! (: we got our own ones haha and li named hers crabs heh

actually they're really pretty just that they're kinda gross and smelly and gross. li was my hero and she helped me put it in and out of the plastic bag thankyou (: haha i shall take photos of our crabs tmr. i rather paint from photos i dont know why. i think its easier.

i have gotten an idea about my design paper so that makes me quite satisfied just that i cant get the effect i want. it looks nicer in my head haha i think acrylic is not my friend.

well anyway i was looking through my photos and i realised i miss my highlights ): and my curls. my hair is now gross and dry and straight. and i really shouldnt damage it anymore by colouring it or curling it. i shall wait till my hair grows strong (: haha hopefully by then i wouldnt have decided to chop it all off. yes i know i have a weird obsession about my hair. haha shinny would know eh (:

and and and i realised i'm gonna fail amaths. cuz even though i may know my formulas and shit, i cant do my questions. i hate problem sums ): they confuse me alot. and even our maths syllabus is partially amaths so that isnt good. darn well practice makes perfect! haha

i've done the first two chapters of chem and i am happy!! (: i did all the questions in BOTH my topical books haha i feel so accomplished. but sadly those arent that important topics haha oh well its a start (:

2007-08-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

after school went to see art mdm and she didnt scold me (: thanks to my brother who helped me paint till late last night. haha it turned out rather bad but then we managed to save a portion of it. its only my prep anyway stayed back to study. had major laughing fits with shinny and sulin haha and then went to coffee bean with sulin for abit before coming home (: had dinner then my mummy brought me to see dick lee's birthday concert for charity. and it was REALLY really good haha i was laughing so so much! and his voice is super good too his brothers as well. and there was even a little dance along section! haha fun fun (:

i was supposed to have gone for the godsrockers thing but then i thought i'd end up spending more time and wont be able to study at all today but turned out the concert dragged for abit. heh oh well

oh yes and i forgot to ask some people in school but anyway anyone who wants to come for my dance concert please let me know! its on the 5th december. tickets are 25, 20 and 15. my teacher just wants to know an estimated number of tickets so she knows how to budget for costumes etc. so yes let me know if you would like to come! it wouldnt be a confirm ticket cuz i know some people arent sure if they're here. but yes it would be fun! its at victoria theatre btw.

well i have super long hours of dance tmr i hope i dont die i havent danced in two weeks and soon i'll be stopping again cuz of igcses and prelims. and i've been staying up later than normal which is bad. my eyes are getting tired again heh at least i'm doing work (:

back to my books then! i've wasted enough time!

2007-08-20T19:43:00.001+08:00

i cant handle stress well ):

i have finished my econs coursework and i'm really pleased with it. i'm still worried about my grades though. chem test results were out but i forgot to check i guess its better not knowing so soon. make a horrible day even worse.

and for art i have absolutely no idea what the hell i want to do. until like late in the day when i asked mdm for help now i guess i have somewhat of a saving grace. i couldnt stand how horribly boring my idea was. i got so sick of it. and i couldnt even paint for some reason. its like for the past two weeks or so i havent been able to paint properly or colour properly or even make a decent piece of work. most of the time i get so fed up with it halfway i give up and ruin it or my heart just isnt there. well anyway li-en! thanks for being there when i had my breakdown yeah (: really i thank God for friends like you. and shinny too (: and sulin and nikki for caring! heh i guess i just had far too much on my mind. and esp with the prelims and all coming up and me not seeming to be able to remember anything.

i really need to do well this year. or try to at least. i dont know where i want to go or if i want to stay but doing well will give me more options wont it.

3 more weeks till prelims. that's not alot of time ):

2007-08-18T13:05:00.000+08:00

edited!
its extremely cold and my fan is on the lowest already.
i think its the rain (:

well anyway i woke up this morning after quite a sucky night. i dont know why it was so horrible. i think it was one of those times where i dont know why i'm so sad/irritated/frustrated/angry/depresed. haha its like a whole load of emotions overwhelmed me i guess. i even stayed up late doing chem and putting myself into my work. at least i woke up better today. so i've gotten started on my econs coursework and i guess its going well (: just that i keep getting stuck then i end up doing chem then i get sick of chem and go back to econs heh and on top of that my rooms a huge mess with papers everywhere cuz yesterdya i was so upset that i didnt know how to answer one question for chem i looked everywhere for my notes. and i found it (: not a very condusive environment for stuying eh but i can find everything i want to surprisingly. okay this post has totally no meaning to it. i'm just rambling on and on.

i shall leave this and go for lunch (:

edit!
i dont have dance today! (:
or rather i dont have to go cuz i'm not in that part! yay yay yay (:
heh i was really tired and i was hoping i didnt have to go. i'm not going for worship night either i think so i can stay home and do my econs and chem and art (:
i'm a happy person. for now that is. heh
i'm going to try and stay focused and do my work and not waste time.
yes i will try (:

2007-08-17T19:06:00.001+08:00

econs test wasnt that bad but chem really sucked ): oh well
and i realised i have tons of art to do and econs coursework as well
today was quite a depressing day eh

so after i came home i watched the family stone and it just ended a while ago. its really really nice and sad but i dont like the ending ): or rather how it turned out. it was still a happy ending but i just guess not the happy ending i wanted.
fairytales dont always have a happy ending do they
tmr's gonna be a long day. dance then worship night. i didnt really want to go but my mum wants to. i need to do my work ): prelims are coming too soon. hmm then sunday there's the king and i that i'm going to.

this year passed way too fast not that it was such a wonderful year. but when you want it to go faster it goes so slowly and when you want time to stop it passes by in a jify. i guess i might as well make use of what's left and hopefully i can cram 4 years worth of work into about 3 weeks eh i guess we'll see. time tells everything doesnt it.

2007-08-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

i didnt go to school today. felt horrible yesterday and almost the whole of today. only nearing dinner i felt much better and less like i could just lie down and sleep forever. well so i slept in and i had a very weird dream.

i had stayed back to do art along with many other people and it wasnt that late i guess cuz there were quite a few people still hanging around well anyway. i was going to go down the staircase further away from the canteen cuz its nearer the art room and no one really uses that. then there were two people there i cant remember who, but they were burning paper and throwing them down the stairs or smth and the stairs somehow had a stain glass that someone did or smth like that but it was fake stainglass cuz it was just paint on glass and it looked like stain glass.

so anyway mdm suddenly came out saw them and told them to be careful cuz the glass was her student's work or smth like that and then she disappeared. i got scared of the fire and went to the other staircase and then went down. when i was like on the first level or smth suddenly people started screaming and then the building started to catch fire or smth like and then everyone panicked and ran and i was walking calmly for some reason then somehow the phones all couldnt work then someone told us all to follow and made everyone walk together along the road and we ended up sitting in the petrol station for some weird reason. and then there were like small kids and all there too. and i was taking photos with my niece while waiting for my mum to pick up her phone but the phones still couldnt work. then someone said the whole new block caught fire and burned down. and then i woke up i think haha okay that was so random. well its not often i remember my dreams.

so anyway went out for lunch with my mum then went for dental and then bought tons of hair accessories and came home and now i'm not doing much. i tried to do econs but i couldnt find anything and i got lazy. so i basically wasted the whole of my today away.

oh yes and my brother helped me cut my hair so now my hair isnt so dead anymore! (:

2007-08-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

so tmr school starts all over again and it's gonna be a drag and the next break is sept holidays which will be burnt studying. i've about a month till prelims and i'm far from ready. and i have tons of homework yet to be done. and that includes econs coursework ):

well anyway! i was just watching tv and trying to do art and i ended up watching the sisterhood of the travelling pants and its a super nice show! heh its so sad like so so sad. i ended up watching the show more than doing my work. tmr when i get to school mdm will start screaming. heh li-en you know what i'm talking about (: haha well the show's really good anyway. at first i thought it was weird but it turned out to be really nice! and because of that i just realised i missed the replay of the parade ): oh well i only caught the marching part which is really boring.

oh darn and there's coursework tmr too for chem i dont want ): i'm not ready for school. ah oh well i think i'm going out for dinner soon anyway.

2007-08-11T10:11:00.000+08:00

fireworks! and there are some other ones that i havent put up yet i think but i'll leave that for another day (:
finally my pictures arent giving me anymore trouble

2007-08-10T09:12:00.000+08:00

oh yes i forgot to mention in yesterday's post! heh so much of yesterday felt like england! like the picnic was just as fun except the weather was really really hot and there is was nice and windy AND WE HAD SHADE. but the company and the food was just as good (: and then! even when we bused to town and walked around it felt the same! haha its like we were walking around not knowing what we were looking for but hoping to find something haha i find it really amusing (: its as though we werent even in singapore. anyway i guess i miss england too much ): i really really want to go back oh well no more time for that i've got to start doing some proper work and start studying or i'll fail and end up having to suffer even more in ib.

and and and i was reading today's paper and the parade seemed really good! heh singaporeans are so patriotic (: haha i think i'll wait for the replay of the parade (:

and my photos are being weird for some reason so i cant post the firework ones ): oh well maybe i'll try again tmr or smth

2007-08-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! (:

photos from today and yesterday!

celebrations were stupid and hot and boring. but today was fun fun fun (:

we finally had out long awaited picnic. it rained in the morning so it was a little wet. waited for li to come before we could sit on the grass cuz she had the mats. ate our nice picnic food and sat under the burning sun cuz nikki pointed us to the wrong area and we were too lazy to move. and now i'm like a tad burnt. i have a sleeve mark and its even kinda pain to rub my nose and my nose and my cheeks are kinda red): well anyway after like about 2 hours under the afternoon sun we left to town and met sulin. walked for a bit shopped then nikki and li left then soon sulin left and shinny and i went nydc to eat then bought bk to bring there and cabbed there but then by the time we reached the whole damn place was packed like crazy it was worse than being in a concert la! walked for abit trying to get anywhere we could ended up getting squished inbetween the crowds so we had to walk through the leaves and branched to get out and it really hurt i've got a scratch on my knee): walked all the way to like the office buildings and all and ended up accidentally stealing someone's cab to get to victoria theatre. heh i though i flagged it down okay! well anyway it was much less crowded at victoria theatre but there were palm trees blocking us. waited around for a bit before the fireworks came out. pretty stuff (: and shinny seemed so fascinated haha it was so so so nice la worth the walking a billion miles. well after it was over ended up walking through the mass of people and stuffing ourselves inbetween sweaty and rude people and got to raffles city and called a cab (: got to my place and shinny got picked up. well it was a nice adventure though i probably wont do it anytime soon. unless i manage to find a decent and empty place. its not nice to enjoy fireworks with tons of people and cars around. well anyway our picnic was a success! i finally got to shop though i didnt get alot i came home alot more broke, and i had a wonderful time with all of them (: esp shinny! heh studying yesterday and fireworks today (:

oh only half the photos are up i'll post the rest tmr. i'm tired ): even though i slept for like almost 11 hours yesterday-this morning. i'm still tired i think its all the walking. okay then goonight world (:

2007-08-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

phototaking today and i just so happen to have dumped my camera in my bag this morning. and since feline wants all the photos i've uploaded all even though some are really yucky. oh yes and we made slime in school. its that green thing in the picture above with the pearl thats supposed to be an eyeball in it. ours turned out quite nice i must say (: well its finally coming to the end of the week soon i cant wait for this weekend to be over funnily enough. i'm looking forward to the long break which i intend to try and spend studying though. not all of it of course but most. anyway i'm tired i'm gonna go sleep soon.

2007-07-31T18:32:00.000+08:00

i was looking through my photos and suddenly i really miss performing. i miss dancing in front of a huge audience, running around changing from costume to costume, the high and the way my heart races before an item. its all gone ): and i hardly even go for my dance during the weekends. even then they're only classes. not items or anything just routines. its different. and plus i dont even dance in school anymore. if the hip hop people werent performing on aug 31st i would have joined. i didnt need his scolding affecting me before premlims. at least cookery's enjoyable if there arent annoying parents or anything.

i realised i hardly do anything i enjoy anymore. no more drums, no more performing, no more rehersals. well after igcses i'll get all that back (: before it takes away my life. i'll play again and there's a concert at the end of the year so at least i have that to look forward to. probably my last concert and even then its only for one night. well i'm sure it'd be fun and yes keep dec5th open! (: esp all you ffs! that is if you people arent away ):

i think i have sudden times when i just miss dance and end up blogging about it haha seems so stupid like every once in a while i'll think about it and get sad. but! i shall look forward to the coming concert and the rehersals cuz that should be fun. bonding time again (: like the last concert! heh well until then i shall put all my heart and soul into studying. well i'll try to at least haha everyone knows that isnt possible for me cuz i just cant memorise anything. and then when igcses are over i can be free! i can finally meet people i havent seen in ages (celene, becs, jo etc) and go out and go crazyy (: i'm acutally looking forward to next year for some reason haha thats so random okay. back to my work thennnn!

2007-07-29T20:55:00.001+08:00

today was quite draggy and i kept almost falling asleep. after church went for lunch with my mum and went with her to some place finished reading tuesdays with morrie- which by the way is a really god book- while waiting and then we got home and i did some more work! (:

and i was just watching high school musical on tv and cuz its a sing a long thing there was lyrics and i realised when there was me and you has really i dont whats the word um relevant? lyrics heh yeah i always liked that song i dont know why. i actually cant wait for the second one to come out the dancing looks so fun la! i miss dancing and performing ): well that was random.

oh anyway li! since you dont have a tagboard or comment thing anymore i have no other way to tell you! haha and if i wait to tmr i may forget. but i told you the horoscope thing was true! haha that is if you're reading from the magazine that i lent you la. heh i told you there was one that was super super correct right haha i dont normally believe in it but i just happened to read it and it was so accurate it was quite freaky. heh okay well thats all i wanted to say.

tmr's monday again and the week is just gonna pass by like nothing and before i know it it will be prelims and then igcse. i'm not ready. i'm far from ready. i'm not mentally prepared ): this year passed too fast. if only i could turn back time eh heh oh well never gonna happen anyway. i should really stop wishing for things and just accept it for what it is. only then can i be truly happy (:

2007-07-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

today was fun fun fun (:

so anyway i woke up early early at 815 this morning and got ready to leave the house cuz i was supposed to be meeting the others for breakfast and to study at 9. by 9 i'm still at home wondering why they havent told me they were reaching so that i can leave my house and start walking. then i call shinny and she tells me they are in botanics cuz they decided to walk from their house! haha so yes after a very long time finally met them then went to macs and nikki came. studied for a bit then moves to starbucks then studied a bit more then nikki left, walked around and i got home before it rained (:

came back had tuition got ready and left again to cine to meet jen li and shinny! collected the tickets, walked around then went for the harry potter! heh i thought it was actually quite good! just that it was short cuz alot was cut out ): but other than that i thought it was a nice show la! haha li didnt think so though. oh yeah and jen was laughing super loudly la! haha well after it ended cabbed down to holland and li and i went to get the rest food while they went to get us seats. it took forever for the food to be ready so we ended up RUNNING to school from holland! smth i never wanna go again. when we reached we both had headaches haha! well our seats kinda got stolen haha well not really but it was complicated and we ended up kinda at the side but i guess it didnt really matter jen wasnt too happy though. well anyway the musical was really good! for smth thats done my our shool! haha i kinda regret quitting it and ended up singing along at some parts haha it was fun! and i never knew our school could put together something like that (: hung around and took photos before waiting for my mummy to come and fetch me after her movie! and then here i am!

we should really do this more often! it was so much fun! although the next time i'm gonna spend so much time out is probably like national day or smth heh i need to start studying seriously. oh unless we go out and study! haha we were acutally quite produtive today okay! i could do a whole math paper! (:

2007-07-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

i have zero motivation to study ):
i have lit coursework due, econs coursework that i have to start on, chem worksheet to finish, chem coursework to prepare, amaths work to do, art prep and practice and revision for everything to start on. i'm gonnna die doing everything.
and i just look at all my work and i feel tired already
and i really dont wanna go to school tmr but i guess i have to if not i'll miss out on alot for chem ): well i shall attempt to start on something now before i waste another day away.

on a lighter note i got back the econs test that i partly studied for (i only studied like 2 out of 3 chapters properly) and i did better than i normally do! of course i could have probably done alot better if i wasnt so careless and stupid but yes it still makes me happy (: haha for once my studying paid off!

okayyyy i shall try to do chem now!

2007-07-24T18:30:00.000+08:00

editedd!*
so today's assembly was rather nice. mr chew talked about tuesdays with morrie. and life and death. and now i really think i should try to treat people nicer and appreciate all my friends and family cuz you never know what will happen and i dont want to live a life of regret and also since he reminded me of that book i think i shall start reading it again. i gave up halfway the last time i cant really remember why but i think its cuz i had to get started on my work oh well (: and i want for one more day too havent gotten down to getting it yet. and my brother wants to wait for the whole set of harry potter books to be sold before we buy it cuz he says our old books are in horrible shape haha so i probably wont read it anytime soon. thats good i guess considering i need to start studying soon.
i tried doing art today and it really really sucked. first of all it was prawn and it was dull and gross and hard to draw. then i just got irritated at my ugly drawing and started to paint but that didnt turn out well either ): i cant observe it well enoughhhhhhhhhh i get lazy and bored of looking at it. haha oh well
i'm gonna try and attempt to start on my lit but i dont think i'll get very far ): haha maybe i'll do amaths instead okay bye bye (:

*omg i just watched lakehouse and its seriously a sweet show la i thought it was gonna end badly then i was so sad but it ended nicely! (: heh i dont see how some people say its boring! at first i thought it was cuz i didnt understand anything but after a while i got it! haha its so so sweet! its amazing how much they loved each other la wah lao oh well i guess its just a show eh

2007-07-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday feline! (:

i hoped you loved loved loved your huge little mermaid balloon! i know you wanted one and i said we'll all get you one for your birthday so we did! heh anyway i hoped yesterday was wonderful for you yes!

2007-07-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

i love this photo! i like how the building looks so un-singapore and like old haha though if there werent that many ants around we could have taken a better one.

fun on foot was actually quite fun! but not for our feet! heh we started off with lots of excitement then we soon became tired and sweaty and lost. haha didnt manage to go to all 18 stations but i think we covered about 10 so its quite well done i think considering we kinda got lost twice and we dont know how to take buses! haha sorry for making you walk around aimlessly so much though! we should have just listen to the genius sulin (: haha she had good instincts! anyway after much walking and talking and eating and getting drenched we got back just before 230 and then ended up not even staying for the winners of the lucky draw to be announced. haha imagine if we won that or smth. well we did answer most of our questions well though! like we had researched and all that haha just the bus part made us go off track. and they had lousy clues! oh well next year! (: haha we shall be all ready. oh yes and we even had time to step into a shop and li bought somethins! haha arent we just wonderful at playing this kinda thing.

i find it amazing we didnt get irritated with one another and its wonderful how most of the time we just walked but it didnt feel awkward about not talking. heh and i esp liked the part where we ate sulin's tuna bread and walked in the rain! haha and thanks sulin! (: it was really good heh

well yes all in all thats how i spent my saturday morning with 3 wonderful and amazing people i'm proud to have as my friends (: it reminded me of london all over again heh esp the parts where we wanted to take photos like tourist and we got lost trying to look for stuff haha well that was tons of fun.

and then i had dance so my legs almost died.

oh yes and i forgot to mention that the guys in the competition are so competitive and they're such idiots la they think we're bimbos or smth we ask them nicely for help and they give us a whole load of bullshit answers and think we're stupid enough to believe them. then when we asked the bunch of girls they're so nice and just told us truthfully what was happening. oh well heh we live and learn.

okay i need to go sleep soon i'm tired and aching and tmr i'll regret doing so much today.

2007-07-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

i'm stressed ):
econs and maths test tmr
i dont really care about maths but econs i'm scared.
and i have like just a little less than 2 chapters to fully memorise left

okay back to studying then heh

2007-07-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

i was reading li's blog and i wanna comment but i cant so i have to say it here heh really li-en i know exactly how you feel. everything there i totally agree with heh well at least you're not alone in this (:

every morning i wake up happy, do my quiet time, and leave the house rather happy. but once i reach school and the day takes off, it just seems to get worse and worse until it finally ends and i'm at home alone in my room and typing away at this laptop. i tell myself to forget about everything and be happy but it can only hold me for that long. its just a matter or time before it all goes downhill from there. i want to fast forward time and runaway from this or get over all this stupid drama. sulin told me that escaping isnt an answer or even a solution. i couldnt agree more. but is there really any other way to solve all this thats going on? i cant help but want to run. well the only way is to turn to God and lean on Him. i guess He's the only one that will really be there and know what you're going through and know how you feel and how to comfort you. and the funny thing is i start and end my day with God but yet its like the devil is there ready to spoil it all.

maybe its just a sad month for people i dont know. well anyway li i hope you cheer up yes (: i'll always always be here for you and you can complain to me just like how i continously complain to you heh

2007-07-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

edit edit
today seemed horrible for some reason after assembly it just sucked. thought about too many things found out too many things. oh well at least i finished my art so now i can get started on my finals.
i wanna leave. run away. to some foreign place. away from everything. away from all these stupid things. but i cant. anytime soon that is. its hard enough having to try and forget about everything, all those problems and thoughts at the back of your mind just waiting to come out and get put right. and it sucks when you dont know where your life is heading. then you dont know if the decisions you make are going to be for the better or for the worst. and its even worse when you dont know how you yourself feel about things. cuz you're so confused you dont know who to believe and what to believe. i think too much about whats going to come and the future i think i end up creating my own downfall. i dont even know how i feel sometimes and that sucks. in school at least there are people and friends that are there to distract you but when you're all alone with no one to everything comes back and you end up in square one again. ah well i've had too many mind boggling talks in school today. i'm thinking too much now. and about things i shouldnt be thinking about. not anymore. i thought i could put it away and never take it out again but it doesnt seem to be the case. people arent making it any easier either. i thought that was over. doesnt seem like it eh.
what happened to keeping all the promises?
well i shall try to be happy and try and look on the positive side of things for once. rather than be the pessimist i am. my rambling doesnt make sense anyway. heh okay happy happy thoughts (: oh yes i hope we can sign up for the stupid heritage run thing! haha running around singapore with sulin and li and shinny would be fun i can just imagine (: heh they never fail to brighten up your day haha (:

oh yes and did i mention i hate it when you actually study for something and you think you'll do okay but when the results come back its totally what you dont expect? that always happens to me ):
nvm happy thoughts (: oh and its a pretty date today too! heh so was the 7th of july (: haha okay that was random but i like how there are so many sevens in it. i realised the next time there was a very very pretty date would be in 2077 on the 7th of july! heh well i think not having anything to do at home except study is driving me crazy. i end up posting so often again and end up rambling on and on about the most irrelevant things. i lead such a sad life dont i haha

2007-07-16T21:51:00.001+08:00

this seems so stupid updating so quickly again. but i was just reading's li-en's blog and i'm happy for her (: she has become so close to God so quickly. and it got me thinking. i've know Him my whole life but yet never seemed to want to be close enough that i'd do daily devotions. i'd turn to him when i have troubles and all but hardly when i'm celebrating. at least my mum put the habit in me to pray everyday and now she makes us all do devotions together. and although its devotions, its never really the same when you have time alone with God. its more personal that way. well i'll try to keep to my promises from now (: heh since i have new found motivation.

2007-07-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

i just finished my gilmore girls so i have absolutely no company at home till i somehow find season 7 ): well i know how it ends already but i still wanna watch it. but i really hate the ending though the producers suck la oh well not everything's a fairytale i guess

oh yes and today we got our questions for our igcse art papers! well i guess it was exciting till the point i saw the questions. i'm not good at doing sad and dark stuff. i have a feeling my manuscript isnt gonna turn out phantom like. and i wanna try other things for design but if i want my good grade i cant ): and then for observational there's either shellfish or sunglasses cuz i cant do a mass of flowers. i dont mind doing the shellfish one but then i'd have to keep getting fresh shellfish that i cant even eat and that'll waste money and i dont think it'd last that long so i'll have to keep buying new ones. and sunglasses seems so boring and reflection is complicated and i'll get impatient with myself and end up hating my work ): i guess i'll just try all and see. why am i typing all this down anyway its not like any of this is making sense ah well.
i'm so sick of studying i cant wait till its all over. i wanna break from school. thats not possible though. unless i take a year off or smth but that'd be stupid. unless i'm going away. maybe before uni i'll break. darn there's so much i wanna do. stuff that are impossible to do right now when there's igcses to worry about. stuff that i enjoy but probably i cant earn any money from so i cant do it for a living. well according to my mum that is. ahh well i shall stop wishing for everything to go away cuz nothing's disappearing and i just have to face life. i cant run or hide from it. back to econs then ): stupid test on friday.

2007-07-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

i basically wasted my day away walking around and watching the bands perform and talking to people (: reached school, did the shift for runners, supported my class thing for going on a ride which was quite fun i must say. wandered around, watched chess, watched bands, ate and walked around somemore. the band competition was quite good though. sean tabby evan and miles were really good! heh loofah was not bad too! congrats to pipe dream anyway! (: i think an insane amount of people voted for them la how can they raise 6,000 dollars alone? thats crazy. well they were good (: and they're all year 4! haha okay well anyway after everything had sushi dinner with nikki and li! and then dessert and inbetween a tiny shopping detour (: and i left the house with so much money and now i'm completely broke. oh well but today was fun i guess better than wasting my day away at home doing nothing with my life.

and my brother got back last night and he didnt buy that many stuff for me! he didnt get my havaianas ): i was looking forward to those oh well i'll just have to wait till next year when i go or smth cuz i think asking my brothers to shop for me isnt going to work out. i miss australia clothes ): they're shopping is the best la. i cant cant cant wait for igcses to be over then i'll be freeeeee! i lost my drive to study already. it comes and goes. haha darn well i should start studying if i want to do something with my life.

and this july is filled with stuff la. next saturday we're supposed to be joining the race around singapore or smth even though we havent signed up and then the following weekend there's the musical at school! i hope thats good! (: then after that no more fun till end of nov ): well it'll be over in no time i guess eh

okay i didnt expect to write that much. my eyes are tired my legs are tired and my hands are now getting tired. at least i dont have dance tmr and i skipped todays! (: haha saved my legs from aching even more.

oh yes and i want to do something to my hair again. i still cant decide what to do. although i said i will only cut it short at the end of the year i feel like chopping it all off now. but i dont think i'll do that cuz i'll regret. well until i find a nice hairstyle i guess i'll just leave it. but my curls are disappearing ): oh darn.

2007-07-13T16:29:00.000+08:00

celefest!

acsinternational (:

saturday, 14th july 07
10-5
tons of games, food etc
band competition and guest performances!

come please! i hope tmr turns out fun and good and i hope there's nice weather (:

2007-07-12T07:15:00.000+08:00

2007-07-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

i was randomly at friendster and the horoscope thingy says that I'm "in the perfect frame of mind to seek out new experiences and people." i don't think so. never did believe those things much anyway it was always like if it said good stuff then you'd believe it but if it didn't there's always a reason not to.
well today could have gone a lot better. and I've been ranting the entire day i just realised which is horribly horrible for my soul and li i didn't really stick to the thing we agreed on heh I'll try to though! its hard okay!
anyway we're having to sell auntie ann's pretzels tmr so we can get money for celefest so yes please buy! and come for celefest! this saturday from 9 or 10 to 5 i think yup (: there's tons going on and i guess its kinda exciting something to keep me distracted from the drama in all aspects of my life recently. i guess i should just stop expecting things and i swear I'm never give anything my all anymore. its totally not worth it. i guess it was good for me to be negative anyway the hurt never is as bad. even that little bit helps
i was talking to shinny and sulin during econs and i realised our blogs don't serve much of a purpose anyway. we hardly blog anymore and even then its to complain or to rant or talk about something that's happened or post pictures. who really reads this thing anyway gosh shinny you should have let me close this down well i guess there will always be that sentimental thing you talk about but damn that. i feel like I'm talking to myself. well at the most i just wont bother to tell the world about my life anymore. i tell myself i don't want to anymore but i cant help it it feels nice to rant. maybe i should lock this thing. hmm i'll think about it i guess.
oh yes and thankyou shinny or listening to me go on and on about everything the entire day and the past few days as well i'm sorry to keep boring you like that but i know i can trust you and you have good advice and you know what i mean even when i dont complete my sentences (:
and ananya too! thanks for listening to me rant to you. the moment i saw you in the hallway you knew there was something wrong heh i find that quite cool well sorry i complained and poured my heart out to you so suddenly once i saw you online i had to tell you! i havent talked to you properly in ages and you still have that trip to tell me about! well soon k (:
and jackey! heh i doubt you'd read this but thank you for always being there when i need someone to talk to and i like how we see things on the same level (: well i miss dancing with you but soon k! heh
okay thats it i'll stop talking to myself now i sound stupid.

2007-07-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

happy youth day! (:

went to nikki's at 11ish to help with the shirts, shinny came soon after then kim came after about 2 and a half hours after. had macs for lunch. and got bored with writing life size chess. cabbed to town. rushed for the 305 movie for transformers, a show i never thought i'd watch, but it wasnt that bad actually just that it moves alot and it can give you a bit of a headache but it was surprisingly not bad. met kim for a while after then left and walked to wisma window shopped and sadly bought nothing then nikki left, shinny and i had a very light dinner haha fast food again before leaving to get a cab home (:

and nikki you should be glad i'm not putting up your photo of your weird drawing (:
and i just realised i help 4x advertise haha okay

i missed the holidays. today passed by to fast ):

and we should really have our dinners/lunches yes!even if its in school (:

2007-06-28T19:34:00.000+08:00

i'm stressed.
i was supposed to have tuition and until about 20 mins ago my teacher postponed the lesson to tmr. so i had everything planned and i had even studied almost all my chem cuz i was ready to have no time to study. and now i have more time to study but i dont feel like studying anymore cuz i'm so damn bored of chem and looking at the same words over and over again.
and my brother's leaving tonight to sydney and then melbourne to meet my other brother when he gets there. and so my mum's in a panick making me feel like i'm in a panick and they keep asking me for help with stuff and i have a test tmr but they dont seem to care.
its making me frustrated ):
and i'm ranting. i really should stop this. i rant too much. okay i'll stop now.

ah well happier stuff. i cant think of any. today was an exceptionally long day. even tuesday wasnt that good a day. i think monday went well. except for the chem prac which wasnt all that bad actually. but then other than that it was that good a week. i'm tired. and i cant wait for all this to be over finally.
i'm just looking forward to the weekend and then monday which is a holiday.
feels like i havent had one in a while.

2007-06-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

SHINNYYYY (:
i love you my pig! and thank you so so so much for being there for me esp today when i needed to rant the most to someone. and we think alike so you understand me even though i don't talk in simple English but in such a crazy way sometimes i confuse myself. well anyway i just wanted to thank you so so so much for tonight and i wouldn't know what i would have done without you! (: i probably would have died but yes <3

2007-06-24T16:26:00.000+08:00

i didnt go to church today cuz when i woke up i had a very bad sore throat and i felt super sick so i went back to sleep and only woke up at 3 (: heh my throat still hurts but i think its getting better. and since there's no dance today again, i'm stuck home the whole day. and hopefully i will finish my homework. i've only got english left! (:

school starts tmr and i'm not prepared. i'm not looking forward to studing hard. igcses seem so close now ):
and it doesnt even feel like its been such a short while since i came back from england. darn i miss that so much ):

okay so more photos, from the castle/palace place that is really super beautiful and i LOVE the view and the gardens and the pretty pretty flowers that are HUGE and the big grass fields. not much was taken from my camera cuz my memory was running out. so mostly from shinny and nikki's camera i think. some are on shinny's blog already. okay thats all i'm posting heh and those are the only ones i have from that place and its alot alreay.

my brother's church people are over and they're so noisy ): but my brother's baking more of his jellyheart like things so hopefully i can eat more (: they're really yummy except they dont look very appetising.

2007-06-23T09:29:00.000+08:00

oh yes and again dont forget to click on the photos first before you save them yeah shinny nik and li! heh they're much nicer big (:

i got up so early cuz i thought my tuition was at 9 but its at 10 oh well
i ended up watching britain's got talent on youtube cuz i'm so bored and i wanted to see the first few rounds. in england nikki told us about it and i only got to watch a few people and the finals and they're so cute (: haha well the small ones at least and they're super good too

okay more photos!

i accidentally put it on macro heh but it turned out really nice though you cant see out faces!

i love love this picture!

jackey plucked that rose for kim and then she gave it to me! it was HUGE and so so pretty (: but by the time we got back to the hotel it died ):

i found a boat with my name on it! (:

photos from strafford and stafford upon avon it think i wasnt sure where we were at which time. heh shakespeare's tour and his birth place or smth and all along with the church where's he's buried and the garden of anne hathaway's cottage if i'm not mistaken. i got so confused after a while i think the another garden was his birth place. they all look the same. all so pretty (: then there's our picnic as well which was super yummy and fun! and then i think after that there's his birth place. well the garden at least. and then after shopping and waiting for the rest of the group (:

i miss england already ):
i even miss getting up early with shinny and picking li from her room before going to breakfast and then meeting nikki and then we start our tour (: that was like what we did every day. haha and we acutally saw alot of interesting stuff. i cant go day by day cuz i cant remember much and i dont have all the photos so i'll just post randomly a bunch at a time (:

2007-06-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

edit!
i just remembered! click to enlarge the photos cuz those are really small (:

okay thats all i'm posting today

there's our first hotel which was probably the worst one and the shower really sucked. our dinner before the macbett play and outside the theatre. it was at least 8 and it was still so bright. it only got dark around 10 or smth. then there's alton towers too and the bear bjorn won me (: haha its super nice to hug la. i think i got a little obsessed playing the game heh then there's the second hotel which was the best among all 3 and i really miss that hotel. the beds were huge the toilets were nice and it was a nice temperature although they didnt have an aircon. and alton towers was really fun although the whole morning was freezing and raining. but we had a nice nice lunch (: and yes thats all i'm bothering to upload now haha there are far far too many. and i havent even gotten any from shinny li and nik and kim yet! please send (:

so anyway i slept at like 1230 yesterday and i woke up at 3 this afternoon. cuz i had no choice i have a feeling if i was left to sleep i would have slept till dinner probably. and thats after having like 10 over hours of sleep on the plane. haha walked over for lunch then went for dental and i went heeren with my mum to use up some voucher and i got a nice nice jacket! which i could have used in england cuz i think i'll look a little stupid using it in singapore although it isnt that thick ): oh well i just got home a while ago and my brothers friends are coming over for dinner soon cuz he's leaving in the beginning of july again oh well that was fast.

i need to start on my work soon. there's art and eng and lit to do. and then i have to study for chem which is next friday. darn ):

2007-06-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

i just got back close to 6 this afternoon (:
i already miss the place and the crazy weather. not so much the sun but more of the wind and the nice cold air. i cant say fresh cuz the air is so polluted. only the countryside was nice and fresh. i actually much prefer small towns to big cities.

anyway i can hardly remember what's happened cuz the past few days have passed by in a jiffy. but its been wonderful spending close to 24hrs each day with shinny li and nik (: gossip sessions were fun (:

and despite my very unsatisfying shopping it was fun (: my mum was surprised i bought so little stuff heh well i'm handling my impluse buying better now arent i shinny (:

shinny!

thanks so much for putting up with all my nonesense and complaints and moodswings and all! haha i dont know what i would have done without you! and now you know how i feel when i shop! haha (: i love you to bits!

li!

thank you for putting up with me! and even though you jack me so so much i know you love me (: haha and thank you for all those nice chats we had! we got to spend lots of ice time eh! haha and i'll try not to finish my art k (: heh love you to bits too!

nik!

heh bimbo! (: the trip wouldnt be the same without your craziness and i would have no one to go crazy with! haha thanks for putting up with me as well yes (: i'll see you mondayyy! i love youuuu (:

well i'll post the rest of the photos up tmr cuz i'm too lazy to and i dont have half of them anyway

i'm not looking forward to tuition and school.

not at all

2007-06-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

dance is more than just a movement.

its the continuous search for perfection.

a tradition.

an emotion.

a feeling.

2007-06-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

holidays filled with nothing except work, tuition, dance and lots of TV and Gilmore Girls (:
other than that i haven't been doing much.
more than half the time i waste the day away.
and for schoolwork, i only have half of lit left, half of english, tiny bit of chem and half of art.
which i intend to do before just before school starts.
well unless i suddenly have an urge to stop slacking.
to think half the holidays are over already.

anyway i got very bored yesterday and i was home alone.
so i decided to bake! and its actually quite therapeutic (:
and i think they didn't turn out all that great
but they smell good (:

and i hope london turns out fun.

i've a feeling there'd be drama but isnt there always when acs(intl) is involved?

and i miss shinny and nikki and li-en and sulin and jen and all the other school people

my life seems so dull now

well at least i'll be seeing shinny and nikki and li-en and kim soon! (:

2007-05-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

edit!
ihope early in the morning followed by macbeth which was insanely boring BUT i got to meet CELENE! and JOLYN! and a whole lot of sc people cuz they all had to watch it as well haha (: yay made my day! too bad i didnt get any photos. then we cabbed to town and ate and sulin left and then it was just shinny and me! haha fun bonding time (: we went a little crazy after a while then we ended up having to sit at startbucks for a while cuz we were so dead tired heh but all in all it was fun (:
oh yes and i met cheryl and clarice and diane at pull and bear as well! haha then i met kheng along the way too! haha i bumped into sooo many people today! heh i'm super tired but it was funnn (:

2007-05-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

in the morning met shinny then went to get tickets for pirates, met christ met nikki then met kim and chern and jackey. ended up late for the show heh besides the fact that it was a tiny bit draggy it wasnt that bad i guess. a little stupid here and there and i got confused alot haha i kept asking shinny what was going on. and there were a very irritating bunch of sc girls screaming alot. i know sc girls scream alot but they were like shrilling and shrieking and i think the whole theatre wanted them to shut up haha i know at one point i heard kim scream at them. so anyway after that ate ice cream then i cabbed home. did a bit of work and then my mum dropped me off at sulins for the bbq! haha we had like no food la had to end up going to buy and all. ordered pizza as well and then took many photos and i got a lift back from chris (:

my loves <3

the phones

the food

li and sulin took turns to be extra

we took so so long to get this right

kawaii!

we got tired of jumping in and out

jen looks evil here

li! (:

and again (:

ice ice!

retards (:

li and sulin!

shinny!

oh yes it was parents teachers meeting yesterday so my mum now wants me studying more than ever. esp since i quit the musical i have no reason not to do well ): i just hope i can do okay.

and and and! my mummy just brought me out for lunch at taka and then i got my shoes! (: finally i got my pretty shoes heh well then the rest of the time was spent at the osim fair cuz my mummy bought stuff. and i saw this pretty dress but i couldnt get it cuz it was a tiny bit loose oh well.

tmr there's ihope then the lit play. i'll probably not go back to ihope after the lit thing heh i cant really be bothered. oh well back to my work then.

2007-05-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

there's nothing to do at home.
after coming home from the london briefing i just did a bit of chem, gave up, ended up sitting infront of the tv and watching 4 episodes of oc straight. thats how boring it is. i would watch more but my eyes are tired from straining cuz the tv was kinda far and i was lazy to move. heh and i'm not even going for rehersal tmr cuz my mum says i look tired and like i'm going to get sick. i just recovered though oh well. and jo just messaged me asking if i wanted to go for std performance with acjc dancers. its funny how everytime we try and arrange something to do or just hang out we can never make it haha isnt it sad. tmr night i've got phantom. i actually would have gone for the performance but there's phantom to go to. why cant it be another night ): life sucks that way. its never the way you want it to turn out. same how people are never happy with what they have. same how when you lose something you only find it when you dont need it anymore.
on separate note, i should really start studying for igcses soon. this year seems to pass so fast. not like i'm having that much fun. well there's london to look forward to. hopefully. i hope it'll turn out fun. well i shall try to start studying by june. just before the trip. or maybe after. i dont know. i'm talking to myself. i think too much about too many things.
this weeks seems bad. but at least its coming to an end.
i need retail therapy.
i want to shop ):
i want my shoes ):

2007-05-17T21:04:00.000+08:00

i realised something today

i really really really miss sc especially sc dance. its hardly the same here. i miss having all those practices we hated and all the gossiping sessions and the panic attacks before performances and the running around giving flowers and the hiding from teachers and avoiding practices. i miss performing with all of them. people i've know since p1. i miss dancing in front of a big audience. i miss the rush of emotions you get before the performance and even after. and and i miss jo ): and lorraine and joan and judith and all the crazy other people.

maybe i should have never left sc. but then again then i wouldnt have met all my wonderful friends (: heh thats the only good thing i guess.

oh well now i feel like quitting the muscial i'm really not in the mood to dance around and put on happy faces. and i dont even wanna go for rehersals anymore ): well at least it'll be over in june.

well one more week of school after this. and thursday and friday there isnt school and wednesday its a half day. i cant wait for june (:

2007-05-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

friday was last day of exams finished art up then went home to change and then went to town to meet the rest of them hung around ate then got a lift back from shinny (: and we should really have more dinners like that day heh it was super fun and crazy and full of laugher. the only sad thing was that i didnt get anything at all ): i couldnt even impulse buy anything la and i really want those lacoste shoes now like super badly ): okay not that badly but quite. okay i should stop talking to myself.

then mothers day dinner on saturday at regent hotel. food wasnt that wonderful but the ice cream was good (:

then sunday wasnt that wonderful it kinda sucked actually. but ballet was quite fun (: next week there are auditions again.

monday kinda sucked too. got back results but i'm not that happy with them but yeah i guess some are good heh then stayed back for the dinner and ended up going to support jen and li-en for high jump and cuz they were the only two so i ended up jumping just to get third cuz all i had to do was jump one metre. heh then we left li-en and jen to compete and we went starbucks to get caramel frapp to cheer ourseleves up. met the rest and ate at essential brews then got a lift back from kim and jackey (:

and nikki! i hope you're feeling much much better and take care of your throat okay! lots and lots of water remember! (: haha hurry come back to school! my bimbo friend i love you! (:

2007-05-10T20:09:00.000+08:00

my mid years are over! (:
well not completely but its only art tmr and i guess i'm quite prepared so yes!
heh after my paper today i went for a little shopping with my mummy then lunch then i came home and then i was gonna watch oc and do my art but maeyan came over with dvds so we ended up watching like 3 movies in a row. haha got hungry ordered macs then dinner and how i'm doing more art (: well my papers werent that great but its just gonna be a little rest before i actually start some serious studying for igcse. i really cant do badly for that. oh well i'm happy exams are over!!
the only sad thing is my art paper is in the AFTERNOON tmr ): and it ends like 5plus ): then i'll go meet the rest before maybe going for jackey's thing. i feel so lazy to travel up and down. oh well we'll see (: i cant wait to shop (:

2007-05-05T17:09:00.000+08:00

bahh i'm sick ):
and my midyears are in two days time and i have hardly started studying.
i dont even feel like moving an inch

and tuition today got cancelled and i'm stuck at home the whole day which is actually a perfect opportunity to study but i cant seem to start

my brain's tired ):

to think i was actually looking forward to finally having a free saturday then i could study and study ):

oh yes dinner yesterday was at the cathay and we stuffed ourselves silly with food. half the time i wanted to fall asleep. but the food was really good actually. we took almost 3 hours to have dinner heh
ah okay nvm this post doesnt make any sense
its so messy

2007-05-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

photos from jen's which isnt much really considering half the time we were either eating or getting thrown into the pool or helping to throw someone in. dinner, pool, truth or dare. the exact same thing as last year haha (:

okay i need to study now heh li-en you got your update!

oh and my brother brought home krispykremes! (: haha he got his friend to buy some (:

2007-04-25T19:37:00.000+08:00

happy birthday jen! and shiyun! (:

i love love love you both! (: and thank you for both being there for me always always always! (:

2007-04-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

service trip today! we got split up into english speaking and chinese and malay so i was split from jen and feline ): anyway we went to some guy's house to clean up and all it was that bad but i was super sleepy after that then went for a drink cuz we were early then bus fetched us and brought us to macs where feline order ALOT for us heh ate and came back to school

and i uploaded pictures from my phone (:

the english speaking group and the guy who's house we cleaned

shinny and i on one of our walks out of school to get dinner when we had to stay back for dance (:

at pull and bear when we went to get out pants!

nikki and i before the dance! (:

i realised i actually miss dance quite a bit heh it was fun during rehersals and really i think we got closer after that (: oh well heh

2007-04-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 LI-EN (:

i hope you loved your present and thank you for being there for me (: the past year and 4 months have been wonderful having you in my life and i'm glad we've become somewhat closer (: i love love you and i'm glad things are better for you now <3

oh and i realised i dont have much nice pictures with you alone so i had to crop one! heh

2007-04-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

my hair's curly again (:

heh so yesterday. econs test in the morning, then i went down to get ready for my exam and since i was like 1 hour plus too early, sat around with felicia and sudhee and they entertained me (: heh then went in for the exam my legs hurt halfway through oh well it seemed to pass super fast maybe cuz there were only two of us. waited for my mum and we went to get our hair done (: and now i have my curls again! heh but by the end of the year i have decided to chop all my hair off and have short hair again. yeah well anyway after what seemed like eternity, we left and went to great world to eat and shop (: and we bumped into the year6s heh then came home after supermarketing cuz we were both super tired. and i think i'm getting sick but yeah oh well

now i've got tutition in a while and then i'm meeting shinny and all then they're coming back to my place for pool! (: heh fun fun fun

2007-04-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

tuesday

performance in the morning which i thought wasnt all that bad but the audience was kinda horrible and unsupportive la oh well then art and dinner

wednesday

lit econs then off to the zoo (: i guess it was quite fun except it was so tiring and i ended up having to carry the kid the second half cuz she was too tired but she was really cute (: came back to school mummy fetched me and i went for dance i hardly had any energy to move i was so tired

today

lit chem maths then home (: i left school early came home and slept woke up quite a while ago and i'm attempting to study for econs tmr well i got like one chapter done already so i guess that isnt so bad but i'm afraid i dont remember anything. oh well back to studying then

2007-04-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

there really hasnt been anything worth blogging about thats happened
and this week hasnt been the best either sure there were moments of happiness but i guess overall it kinda sucked i guess its the same for everyone else eh
and now i'm aching all over cuz of dance and my exam is next week and on my second last class today i couldnt even dance properly ): oh well i just hope i do okay

anyways i realised midyrs are really close and i havent gotten started on anything yet which is really really bad cuz i dont wanna screw up my grades too ):

and again the weekend is passing by so fast. sometimes i wish i could just stop time and take a break from everything. i dont even have enough time to finish my work up well maybe i do but i just get distracted easily like everytime i get started on my art i screw it up somehow and i dont feel like doing anything else anymore then i try and move on to econs but all i end up doing is adding one paragraph to it. then there's english too. well for that i just stare at the screen as if hoping everything that i've though of will end up there. by that time i'm really irritated with myself and end up using the internet and never really getting back to my work until my internet screws up then it just repeats itself. what a sad life i lead.

ahh nvm this is such a screwed up post heh i think my brain is dead i cant think anymore

oh li-en i really hope you're fine yeah smile (:
we're all here for you <3

okay goodnight world (:

2007-04-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

thank you shinny and li-en and sulin esp for cheering me up during lit (:
so for pe we went for service and the kids there are so cute so we gave them food and painted shirts with them for them to wear to the zoo next week and then read to them for a bit and we left. went back to school having to listen to the stupid teacher complain about how much we can improve and all on the way back and then sat around for a while then i came home and had tuition.

i realised mid years are coming soon and i need to start studying badly oh well then there's my econs coursework due soon too ):

and there's dance tmr till late again ): not looking forward to that and we're performing next tuesday and then i have my ballet exam on friday i really hope i do well ):

oh and its like this month is somehow going the wrong way or smth like its filled with problems that just dont wanna go away and its like impossible to make anything better but yeah oh well i shant think too much about it (:

2007-04-07T20:43:00.000+08:00

i spent yesterday in church and with my mummy (: and i realised that i should try and be a nicer person, i keep saying that but i never seem to carry it out but i shall try (: so after service i went with my mum for lunch then vivo for shopping and because i said so. nice nice movie! the only frustrating thing about yesterday is that whatever i wanted either was too ex or wasnt all that great well at least i got shoes (: heh

then today i had to wake up at an unearthly hour of 545 then got ready for the stupid walk and shinny picked me met nikki outside independent and we went in then after quite a long time we went for the walk. and i'm really sorry for being so hard to put up with ): the heat and the distance could just kill me but thanks anyways yes (: heh so anyway after the walk went to town to eat then pool then i came home and fell on my bed and slept before going for dance. i was like gonna collapse halfway through dance my legs were so tired.

anyway NIKKI and LI-EN! (:
i hope you two are feeling much much better! i'm sorry i really suck at cheering people up but yes you both know that i'm always always always here for you okay! (: whatever it is you both know all the ffs are here for you <3

2007-04-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

haha i'm talking to ananya and i told her i felt like updatin my blog but i didnt know what to blog about and this is what she said

This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
hahaha
This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
you can dedicate a whole blog psot to me
This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
IM SURE YOU'LL HAVE LOTS TI WRITE ABOUT
This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
COS I MEAN
This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
ITS ME AFTER ALL.
This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
THERES JSUT SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT
This isn't just goodbye, this i can't stand you. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

haha are you happy now! (:
so anyway school was the same i guess except that econs totally stressed me out and i think i failed it anyway so then pe went to the service place to tell them what we wanted to do and all the kids are so so cute! (: they just come up and hug you so tight la haha anyway we have lots to do to prepare for the outing thingy so yeah and then i ended up rushing for musical cuz we got back late and all then hung around for abit after that and left for home then i had tuition heh i keep forgetting when my tuition is then when my tutor comes i get a shock ): haha anyway back to finding that stupid piece of paper i need to submit at the end of the month ): i dont know what the hell i did with it la i feel so stupid now oh well

2007-03-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

today was relatively fun (:

after school hung around the danced for a bit before leaving for town walked around and looked for stuff for the dance thing and all. and i hate it when i see so so so many things while shopping but i have no cash at all ): at like pull and bear alone i already found 4 stuff i wanna go back and get and i bet if jackey didnt stop me i'd find more. i need retail therapy ): i dont care i want to go back next week if not like i'll die i havent shopped in so long. well at least i got a pullover today! (: heh oh well after that people left and we went coffee bean sat and then i came home (:

and there's dance tmr but i dont think i'm gonna go i feel tired and my knee hurts again ): oh well and kim! i want photos! (:

okay byebye then (:

2007-03-28T18:17:00.000+08:00

so i decided to update my very dead blog (:

besides lots of dance practices and a ton of homework nothing much has changed
i actually thought i had stuff to blog about but i seem to have forgotten everything ):
okay nevermind then back to my work (:
maybe when i remember again i'll update
smile please (:

2007-03-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

i'm dying ):
i dont know how to do my econs coursework at all and the draft is due friday
and friday i have chem test too
and then tmr i have chem coursework ):

ahh i'm stressed
okay bye

2007-03-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

botanics in an attempt for a pinic with very little food, then town trying to go shopping but ending up buying hardly anything, sushi tei for lunch, toysrus, and more shopping, and last minute decision to watch stomp the yard before coming home, dinner, then win a date with tad hamilton and the prince and me in the room upstairs, along with tons of food, before going to my room and falling asleep (:

so thats basically how i spent my yesterday heh nikki just left my house a while ago
this is getting boring oh well pictures then! (:

oh yes and i was talking to my brother online and he just got a winter jacket haha he says its too cold there. heh i wanna go there now ): i havent seen him for almost 3 months la and plus they have nice weather now and i love cold weather ): oh well maybe june eh (:

2007-03-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

today has actually been quite a good day (: heh except that i'm dead tired and aching all over

two dance classes early in the morning followed by lunch and tiny little bit of shopping, collected my ic, bought dance exam stuff, dropped by ps got some drum stuff, went marks and spencers for and bought food for the first time in a very very long while, went home for a bit then greatworld where we had a very very nice dinner along with a wonderful movie called music and lyrics and then crazy shopping before all the shops closed on us haha we had to ask the guard to let us into zara heh so yeah that was my crazy day spent with my mum almost 12 solid hours out with her (:

and yes music and lyrics is a damn damn damn good show haha its so damn sweet (: ahh haha its so good la so so sweet (:

anyway i'm dead tired so yes i shall end here OH YEAH i forgot! heh an email got sent to me saying that my art thing got chosen for the competition like thing i sent it in for last time! haha so yes my piece will be sold haha thats if anyone buys it part of it goes to charity haha my mum wanted to buy it but the exhibition is in new zealand so yeah anyway i need to somehow send it over soon ah stress and the thing is its in school and i dont even know if i have a copy of my entry form! ): okay nvm i'll deal with that tmr or smth haha after mdm gets back to me (:

2007-03-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

so my not using the internet thing isnt really working heh well anyways holidays have been draggy and boring well not today but yeah yesterday i practically slacked my whole day away till tuition at least there was dance today but i'm so tired after it and i'm full of bruises everywhere heh but i guess it was kinda fun eh (: well there's dance again tmr morning and i hope its not that tiring after that i'm gonna go out with my mummy! (: heh something to look forward to i guess

oh oh and i finished my chem coursework! heh i almost died trying to do it but i'm so happy its done (: now i just have econs left to tackle and art heh well for art i have no theme cuz its coursework so i kinda can do anything i want thats whats making it hard heh i have something in mind but i've never tried it out so i dont know if it can work well i'll just have to wait and see then eh (:

okay i shall attempt to do some of my econs heh at least the definitions part i'm probably gonna end up copying from the sample la oh well (:

random photo! (:

2007-03-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

the holidays are here and i've a ton of homework to do and i dont know how to do almost everything ): i need ideas for art and i need lots of help for chem and econs. ah damn it i've got no mood to do anything at all i dont even know how to get started on my work
i suddenly miss last year there seemed to be so much less stress i hate coursework ):

and i really should stop using the internet it'll be so much like simpler without it dont you think?
well its not gonna be easy with the holidays coming up but i shall try (: i'll probably feel much better if i dont read too much into things anyway heh

oh and yes ffs and whoever else there is eugene's class on tuesday from 11 to 4 its in school
and we're trying to plan a picnic on friday so yes (: please keep it free! nikki please help plan it! (:

2007-03-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

photos from yesterday! there are only two heh its quite sad

nikki wanted a photo with my chinese new year christmas tree haha yes our tree is still alive and my mum though it'll be horrible to just kill it so we are keeping it till it totally dies which i have a feeling is going to be never cuz its just gonna dry up so at the end of the year our tree will probably a real alive but dried christmas tree (: heh and since cny was just over my mum got orange decorations to put on it haha

2007-03-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

i suddenly lost the mood to blog already

well interhouse games today spent most of it walking around and talking with kim and shinny and in the sun and now i'm kinda burnt oh well after that we left to sakae to meet nikki and then we watched the pursuit of happyness then kim left and we went to wisma shopped and shoppend and shinny left and nikki came back with me heh ended up watching josie and the pussycats till she left
nikki and shinny! we have to have to have a shopping day soon yes (:

and did i mention it sucks how one small thing can screw up the whole day
people are seriously trying to get on my nerves or smth
okay fine maybe i'm being very bitchy about it nvm i shall try and be nice (: and pretend i dont know anything heh happy thoughts (:

2007-03-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

so yesterday night was crazy after dinner my brother and i had some violent allergic reaction my brother's was alot worse though oh well ended up having to go for injections and so i went to school late (: by the time i reached it was into the second lesson of econs so i just sat around the canteen and the only lesson i went for was pe heh after school there was musical and then i went out with ananya then walked back to school and waited for cookery to end and talked with shinny and nikki till shinny had to leave then stayed with nikki till i had to leave (:

and tmr there is that stupid chem practical and suppsedly we have to write a lit essay tmr in class which is just plain impossible ): i should have been sick tmr la darn well back to art which is also due tmr ):

2007-03-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN JOLYN! (:

haha i miss you so so much la! i havent seen you since concert ): well i hope you enjoyed your birthday my dear (: and thank you for all those many many years of laughter and fun heh i miss all those crazy times in dance! we shall meet up soon okay! i love love love you! (:

2007-03-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

yes i know its monday and fall out boy was on saturday but i havent had time heh

so after dance i went down to parkway to meet feline and shinny and it was already like almost 7 by the time i got there then there was a super long cue so we had to call a cab heh got to the expo only around 730 plus plus and by the time we went in it was like 745 haha and we didnt even have to cue! met the others and spent the rest of the time sitting around and being very tired and bored OH but the highlight was that i finally saw CELENE! (: haha i miss you! so anways there were these two bands that opened for like the first one and a half hours then the next half hour was spent waiting for fob then they finally came on and i really wished they played more songs heh i felt so cheated la it wasnt really what i expected i guess and plus i wasnt really in the mood to go infront and push around so i stayed at the back with shinny most of the time (: it ended then i got a lift back from shinny and just fell asleep haha so yes that was all the concert was about not that good oh well

pictures!

2007-03-02T18:37:00.000+08:00

today was probably the worse day ever okay maybe not ever but so far
during econs got back my test and my grades seriously sucked then chem grades sucked as well and then i had the stupid maths test and i didnt know how to do so many cuz he said he was only gonna test us on vectors but he tested like on every chapter ): oh well
at least at the end of the day there was ananya and shinny there to cheer me up (: haha though we were all kinda angry and irritated and depressed it didnt seem like it by the time we went home! heh

anyway my brother's friends are coming over soon and we're having steamboat! (:
oh and yes! there's the fall out boy concert tmr! i dont know if i should be excited haha we're probably gonna be squished somewhere anyway and we dont wanna queue so yes oh well ANYWAY those who dont know where we're supposed to meet at what time please msg me or shinny! heh okay (:

2007-03-01T19:05:00.000+08:00

edited!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SULIN! (: heh i hope you liked your present that we ran around orchard in the rain for! i cant believe you knew and you still looked so sad that we felt bad la! heh gosh anyway thankyou for being in my life and just being you and making me laugh and smile all the time i love you sotong! (:

so after founders day which totally sucked we walked out in the rain to holland to get make up remover but obviously not all came off. anyway cabbed to seoul garden which was filled with acjc people heh had another crazy lunch there before lying to sulin that we couldnt stay and left to get her presents. ran around from place to place and in the rain before finally cabbing to her place after almost 2 hours. went and tried to surprise her but apparently they could hear us once we entered haha oh well (: anyway some pictures. i'll do the rest another day i have tuition in a while and i need to remember to do my chem file ):

oh yes and school is starting to irritate me more and more not just the school work but other things as well ): and i'm supposed to be trying to bitch less but people arent making life easy for me its like it just keeps getting worse. BUT i shall not bitch about everything and anything anymore and control myself (: i should really stop using the internet haha i think that will help alot alot. well maybe school's just not the same anymore its quite sad though ): oh well back to my chem file!

2007-02-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN NIKKI! (:

i love love love love you! (:
haha i hope you had a wonderful birthday and i'm sorry about the present thing! heh dont worry the other presents will come soon! and thankyou for everything you've ever done and just being there all the time for me and listening to me complain so so much! you know i'll always always be here for you my dear bimbo friend! haha (: see one whole post for you haha you should be happy!

2007-02-24T12:45:00.000+08:00

oh gosh haha i've alot to update about not that much its just chiangmai and nikki's dinner actually haha okay here it goes (: we left on friday early early in the morning and the plane ride kinda sucked cuz there was no entertainment so i was bored for 2 hours and 40 mins but i slept a little and i really did not like the breakfast they gave. i never liked plane food anyway so yeah reached there and they have these funny things that take your photo when you go through immigration heh got on the bus and got to the hotel! its a really really pretty and modern hotel and it was right in the middle of the night bazzaar! heh (: and it was like super orange even the people's uniforms was orange suspenders haha

and they had all these really pretty flowers that they changed like every morning and night super pretty (:

then we got our rooms which was kinda cool too it had upside down hanging lamps! haha then we went shopping and dinner and more shopping. next day was spent at factories and all not that exciting haha then then after dinner we went to play firecrackers! haha well i didnt cuz i was too scared but it was really pretty! the ones that became fireworks at least heh i have videos but i do not know how to post videos and i'm too lazy to find out haha then we went for some show that almost put me to sleep.

next day we woke up and went to my grandparents room like all 18 of us squeezed into one room and started taking photos and all

the one with my family alone is on the other camera and i havent uploaded the photos yet heh
so anyway we went downstairs and started taking more photos haha

then more shopping then lunch then we went goldcarting! haha i dont have any photos from there cuz i kept my camera all the photos are on the other camera and i have yet to upload those as well after that we stopped by four seasons which was really really pretty

then back to the hotel and i totally wasted the day away till dinner which was at this place that had dancing and dinner at the same time but no one really watched the dance. oh but after dinner we had this like hot air balloon thing we lit!

next day was our elephant ride! haha and the elephant show which was really good i never knew elephants could paint haha they're super cute la!

then the monkey show which was quite a waste of time then we stopped by the orchid garden before lunch!

then shopping again and then dinner and more shopping oh and somewhere inbetween that was more firecrackers and i was supposed to try to throw but i got scared again haha

then we had to pack and leave the next day ): and then i saw david at the airport haha

oh gosh that was a really long post heh okay now for nikki's party i'm just gonna post a few pictures ask me to send the rest over if you want them!

hardrock cafe with them embarrassing nikki, then the long walk to cine just to go to the arcade, attempts to play ddr with nikki, trying and failing to get a cab, going to holland and slacking, nikki and kim not allowing me to sleep, sudden high moments where we all go crazy, random walks around the neighbourhood, the two of them trying to teach me mahjong, 4am instant noodles that was a little too salty, and then love acutally where we all fall asleep on nikki's couch (: that was practically my whole night. then i wake up today and leave and those two pigs are still sleeping haha probably one of the most fun nights of the year (:

i love all 7 of you (: i wouldnt know what to do without all of you in my life (:

2007-02-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

i have tons to update about esp about my trip and i have lots of photos (: heh it was fun but really tiring cuz we were practically rushing everywhere oh! haha i saw david on the way back! supposedly he went on the same flight there but i didnt see him heh oh well

it seems like i'm always rushing these few days i dont have time to relax ):
well one good thing is that my mum said i can stayover at nikki's tmr! YAY haha but i'm gonna be dead tired after this oh well and then there's founders day soon so there's like rehersal on monday and then tuesday there's eugene's class then wednesday i have double tuition then friday is founders day already I'M GONNA DIE

haha oh well i'm too lazy to upload pictures in a rush so another day then! (:

2007-02-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving tmr! (:
i've got to wake up early early in the morning cuz the flight's at like 8 so yes while everyone is celebrating in school i will be on a stuffy plane. at least there'll be movies (:

and and and! our classroom looks so pretty! haha i hope we win tmr! our classroom looks so cool la! heh
anyway if anyone wants anything please tell me soon and i really hope i can use my phone there cuz the last time i went melbourne i couldnt ): so yes

well i'll be back on tuesday afternoon i think so yes
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR (:

2007-02-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day (:

its supposed to be i <3 all of them haha

JENNNN! (:

lit!

ananya! haha i love you my dear! i dont know what i'd do without you in dance!

i like this photo! haha nikki! my arty shots! (:

<3

thankyou for the wishes and the flowers and everything and i hope whoever got our cookies and all liked them! (:

so i got to leave lit early! haha went to change to sell the flowers and all ended up a little late for econs and then break again sold more stuff and then there was pe! then school ended and i went for the muscial thingy and then we waited for jen and went for sushi! (: heh had dinner with feline and shinny and jen and it was super duper fun (: heh and thankyou to all three of you for listening to my complains heh i love you all (:

waited for my mum with shinny and i dropped her back! heh

oh and yes! i have started to use my pretty pink phone! haha its so cool and it makes me so happy (:

anyway i need to go back to packing although i seem to be dumping clothes randomly haha i think i need to repack after this heh oh well

2007-02-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

i guess today wasnt all that bad after all heh
mrs mok gave us almost triple ehglish free then there was maths test and triple art but at least i managed to do my postbox competition heh i doubt i'll win anything though anyway cabbed to town with sean and then i met my mum and we went to get our phones! (: haha highlight of my day i was SO SO happy when i saw it (: then went back to school and i was super late for dance heh oh and i met kheng! haha he was there for the match talked to him for abit and then i went to fos to get our costumes and i dont really like them much ): i look so gross ahhhhh sheesh oh well walked back to school after and then we danced for abit. i was gonna go to nikki's but decided not to in the end. sorry! ): i came home and now i'm painting shirts haha
and i have my work to do as well SHINNY! haha i need help with econs yet again ): haha

okay i'm gonna go charge my phone! ITS SO COOL (:

2007-02-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

i should really go back to not using the com everyday well its kinda hard cuz its in my room now oh well

today was okay i still have no idea what to do for art and i have the stupid postbox competition i have to do by TMR and she gave it to me today damn it so anyway chem was boring i was dying in the heat and then after school was the highlight (: haha shinny sulin nikki and i just sat around and talked and it was super duper fun! heh we should do that more often haha

well triple english and art tmr and dance again i wish it was eugene's class instead i was looking forward to that la and turns out the following week also wont have cuz its cny ): wah lao oh well

i'm so sick of studyinggggg ): and there's that stupid maths test tmr too ahh

2007-02-10T09:39:00.000+08:00

finally nikki sent me pictures! (:

i cant remember what happened yesterday except that my chem test wasnt so great and i bruised myself even more at dance heh and now there's dance on tuesday as well so we cant have eugene's class ): i'm like dancing tuesday wednesday(if there is pe) thrusday friday saturday and sunday its practically everyday la and i just realised i'm leaving on friday which is really really soon haha i cant wait (:

and i still need to get that shirt to paint for wednesday ah damn i need to go out soon ):

oh yeah and the year book FINALLY came out yesterday but the pictures in it are so so bad they didnt even use the individual ones that we took so its like our student ic ones which look like shit or at least mine does ): oh well its really colourful though haha (: i must say its quite nice except for the ugly photos but yes haha

2007-02-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

i should really be studying for my chem test tmr but i cant ): i dont know anything at all i think i'm gonna fail ):

double lit was a drag chem prac sucked maths was fine and doule english sucked too and i didnt go for chinese i just did my work and left then we went to the geog room and started dancing! (: heh and then there was all that singing which was really really fun but then we had to rush off for dance i'm dead tired and i somehow managed to cut and scratch myself while dancing ): heh it hurts well anyway i need to try and study for chem ): and i suck at memorising i'm gonna DIE

oh yeah and before my mum left she slammed her finger on the door then she though it'll get better but she just went for a check up like 3 weeks later and it turns out her bone broke ): so she's going in for a small op tmr ):

back to chem ):

2007-02-07T19:44:00.000+08:00

today wasnt all that bad (:
i didnt wanna go for lit so i got a sickbay form and went to the sick bay with shinny heh we basically spent the whole time in there talking
so anyway then it was break then tutor time and we went to decorate the class and our class looks so pretty! (: heh yes then we had drama and i wanted to run away and go for dance instead but we couldnt ):
but then drama wasnt all that horrible except for the part where we had to act but the games and all were quite fun and thank you to feline and jen yet again for being there for me at the end (: heh i really dont know what i'd do without you two (:

then my mummy picked me up in school! so i didnt have to walk out and we went to taka and we were gonna get my brother's phone but it isnt in stock ): so then we went around and my mum and i got out phones! but we can only get it next week (: BUT STILL that made me so happy (: haha so anyway walked around abit and surprisingly we didnt buy anything at all! except food la and out phones! but then i meant shopping la so yeah haha

anyway i need to go study for my chem test or i'm SO SO dead

2007-02-06T20:33:00.000+08:00

today's lessons sucked but other than that it was good i guess (:
esp dance class! heh that was fun AND i so do not get why lifeskills just HAS to be tmr! i tell you its so frustrating it was the only day i was looking forward to okay! ): but they just had to replace that particular lesson with drama of all things. darn oh well well i can look forward to next week i hope thats a better week (: heh

oh and yes mdm says i should try to do fashion but then yet when i do manuscript she doesnt tell me to do fashion okay nvm this is confusing i need to decide on one soon and start practicing! ):

ah i cant wait for dance next week (: so exciting (: haha i havent looked forward to class this much in a long long time!

2007-02-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

so maybe feb will be a more confusing month haha
anyways i cant wait to go away (:
haha that was so random
so i just got back from school a while ago didnt do much the whole day and now i cant decided between manuscript or fashion ): both are under my design paper darn well i'm doing manuscript for fun now anyway haha i had an urge to start writing again after looking through mdm's book (:

oh yes and thankyou to shinny and nikki and feline and jen and ananya who have been there for me (: i love you guys and i will stop complaining to all of you heh

and! there's dance tmr! finally something i look forward to (: other than that i have three lessons of art and three lessons of english and one lesson of maths then i leave school cuz i have free (: heh but the stupid thing is i'll come back to school after that haha oh well staying in school with no one is worse.

OH and feline told me i've changed groups for the musical! (: yay! haha i'm so happy heh

okay back to my manuscript (: