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Saturday, September 01, 2007
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today was quite horrible although nothing really happened. it was like a whole load of emotions just took over me. and i guess it was a matter of time before smth like this happened. my eyes are all small and tired now ): so tuition ended up to not be tuition i was just talking to my tutor the whole time and then i didnt go for dance cuz really i dont think i could have handled it. so since my mum and my brothers were out, i decided to walk to tanglin mall to get stuff to bake! heh walked all the way there accompanied by my ipod and then got my stuff, and my caramel frapp! then walked all the way back. i must say it wasnt that bad (: it was actually kinda nice. except i think people were looking at me funny cuz my eyes were werid heh came home and baked brownies (: i dont think they turned out very pretty but they taste really good! super duper chewy. i shall bring some to school on monday! and i think i will bake cookies sometime in the week. i think baking is theraputic. shopping is too of course but i havent had much of that in a while. i feel much better now anyway. and of course after all that praying i think God really managed to lift my spirits (: it feels much better to just trust in Him and believe that He will bring me out of this. i realised i've been trying to take on people's burdens in the hoping that would help and i guess i shouldnt think that i can handle all that. it may look like i can but i guess there's just too much hurt and pain inside me i dont even show it because its almost as though i cant feel it anymore. only when it builds up so much that i'm about to go crazy then it all comes out. this isnt a good way to live. well i shall lift all my problems up to God because i know He will help me through everything (:
edit! i really wanna watch license to wed although its not out anymore and i wanna watch no reservations! i hope it wont be gone by the time exams are over.
