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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
i was randomly at friendster and the horoscope thingy says that I'm "in the perfect frame of mind to seek out new experiences and people." i don't think so. never did believe those things much anyway it was always like if it said good stuff then you'd believe it but if it didn't there's always a reason not to. well today could have gone a lot better. and I've been ranting the entire day i just realised which is horribly horrible for my soul and li i didn't really stick to the thing we agreed on heh I'll try to though! its hard okay! anyway we're having to sell auntie ann's pretzels tmr so we can get money for celefest so yes please buy! and come for celefest! this saturday from 9 or 10 to 5 i think yup (: there's tons going on and i guess its kinda exciting something to keep me distracted from the drama in all aspects of my life recently. i guess i should just stop expecting things and i swear I'm never give anything my all anymore. its totally not worth it. i guess it was good for me to be negative anyway the hurt never is as bad. even that little bit helps i was talking to shinny and sulin during econs and i realised our blogs don't serve much of a purpose anyway. we hardly blog anymore and even then its to complain or to rant or talk about something that's happened or post pictures. who really reads this thing anyway gosh shinny you should have let me close this down well i guess there will always be that sentimental thing you talk about but damn that. i feel like I'm talking to myself. well at the most i just wont bother to tell the world about my life anymore. i tell myself i don't want to anymore but i cant help it it feels nice to rant. maybe i should lock this thing. hmm i'll think about it i guess. oh yes and thankyou shinny or listening to me go on and on about everything the entire day and the past few days as well i'm sorry to keep boring you like that but i know i can trust you and you have good advice and you know what i mean even when i dont complete my sentences (: and ananya too! thanks for listening to me rant to you. the moment i saw you in the hallway you knew there was something wrong heh i find that quite cool well sorry i complained and poured my heart out to you so suddenly once i saw you online i had to tell you! i havent talked to you properly in ages and you still have that trip to tell me about! well soon k (: and jackey! heh i doubt you'd read this but thank you for always being there when i need someone to talk to and i like how we see things on the same level (: well i miss dancing with you but soon k! heh okay thats it i'll stop talking to myself now i sound stupid.