
i was looking through my photos and suddenly i really miss performing. i miss dancing in front of a huge audience, running around changing from costume to costume, the high and the way my heart races before an item. its all gone ): and i hardly even go for my dance during the weekends. even then they're only classes. not items or anything just routines. its different. and plus i dont even dance in school anymore. if the hip hop people werent performing on aug 31st i would have joined. i didnt need his scolding affecting me before premlims. at least cookery's enjoyable if there arent annoying parents or anything.
i realised i hardly do anything i enjoy anymore. no more drums, no more performing, no more rehersals. well after igcses i'll get all that back (: before it takes away my life. i'll play again and there's a concert at the end of the year so at least i have that to look forward to. probably my last concert and even then its only for one night. well i'm sure it'd be fun and yes keep dec5th open! (: esp all you ffs! that is if you people arent away ):
i think i have sudden times when i just miss dance and end up blogging about it haha seems so stupid like every once in a while i'll think about it and get sad. but! i shall look forward to the coming concert and the rehersals cuz that should be fun. bonding time again (: like the last concert! heh well until then i shall put all my heart and soul into studying. well i'll try to at least haha everyone knows that isnt possible for me cuz i just cant memorise anything. and then when igcses are over i can be free! i can finally meet people i havent seen in ages (celene, becs, jo etc) and go out and go crazyy (: i'm acutally looking forward to next year for some reason haha thats so random okay. back to my work thennnn!